Happy New Year One and All!

Well it’s that time of year again where I say to myself. It really is time to start doing some writing, pitch a few ideas, keep up with my blog, and maybe tackle that novel I’I've been working on since I was 15. Well, not the same one. I mean, it is the same one, but the ideas and premises have changed as I’ve grown up, and now it’s pretty different to how it started. You know how it is though. Everything kind of gets put on the back burner. That’s me all over. I’m an “I’ll get to it later” kind of girl. An “I just wanna relax for a bit” sort of person. Then before you know it your 15 episodes into Tru Blood, and your room-mates knocking on the door to ask why you haven’t been seen for two days!

Anyway, I ramble on. The thing is. I don’t write because I want loads of people to read it. I don’t write thinking I’ll get very far with it, or even that I want to any more. It’s just something personal that makes me happy. Therein lays my point. I think a lot of people in life are so bogged down and busy running around their  day to day week, doing the things that have to be done, that we ‘re all too tired to do the things we want. This is my New Years Resolution! To say yes to everything! Well not yes to everything, I’m not trying to be the “YES MAN!”. I think I’m just going to be more conscious of not letting my life go by, which I have a tendency to do. I’m going to stop complaining, and moaning, and just be a generally happier person. People who know me know that this is a difficult thing for me. I am King of the wingers, Mayer of the Misery, and Top Dog of the Depressives! But not any more kids!!

2013 was a pretty shit year for me, as it was for my family as whole I’d say. I had heart break, I lost someone I cared for very much, and some personal things that I need not bore anyone. So I spent the majority of last year crying, or sad, terrified, or anything other than happy. I stayed in A LOT. I withdrew into myself and looking back over 2013 I simply wasted my life. A terrible sin really when I knew someone who loved life so much but was taken very young. Even when I was smacked in the face with that I still just didn’t have it in me to move on and enjoy every second. There have been so many situations in my life where I’ve been dragged down, missed out, and threw away amazing opportunities because of being afraid. It’s sad that it’s taken me to get through some major hurdles of 2013 that now at 28 I’ve finally said I’ve had enough! 2014 is the year of taking risks, of saying yes to more things. Going to parties I wouldn't normally go to for fear of not knowing anyone there. Skydiving, because I haven’t done it before. Doing more for others, because if other people are happy because of something I'm doing then that’s going to make me happy. ( Rather selfish yes I know). Bungee jumping, because I haven’t done that before! Meeting new people. Going on more holidays, with the help of my credit card. Then paying off my debt because I wanna be a grown up. Pretty much try me, I'm gonna try and say yes to 90% of all things! That’s my attitude  right now!

Even while writing this, my best buddy asked me to do a half marathon and a 10K this year! I’ve said YES!! See, it’s time for yes people!

My point is. It’s easy to be too tired to go meet your mate at the pub, with this weather you want a duvet more than you want to go out and see someone, or do something for risk of being cold and wet. Everything feels like an effort. It’s all you see on Facebook really, and I'm the number one for that shit, but let’s have an emotional clear out! You don’t have to burn the candle at both ends; and have a nervous breakdown. I’m not going to be doing that. I’m just going to be more aware of what I'm doing with myself. Think outside the box for your New Year’s Resolution because the biggest one is to make sure you’re living your life to its fullest, and you’re enjoying every second because regretting the things you haven't  done is so much worse than regretting the things you have done.